WASHINGTON

Densel Washington as George Washington, the first BLACK president.

DENZEL DENZEL DENZEL

this wudda been cool.

We're living under covers.

Paul and I are driving cross country in the summer.  He works too early .  I have 300$ saved. I want to save at least 30$ a week. i'm so amped i hope this goes down.

Somehow my brother, who doesnt have a job ever, is also doing this but stopping to camp everywhere. I know my parents give him money and hide it from me.  Its complete bullshit since if i wasn't working for the past 4 years theyd slay me.

I watched Milk. It was fucking amazing. Sean Penn should get an oscar.

more importantly:

I WATCHED INTO THE WILD AND IT CHANGED EVERYTHING.

I have insane amount of polaroids i need to scan but need new ink. Why do scanners require ink?

I owe 200$ and i'm screwed. money situ's always suck so bad

I ordered a swimsuit and a new romper im excited to come.

Playlist:

1.Let's make this moment a crime- the format

2. Bringer of truth- through the eyes of the dead

3. everything poison the well as always, and they need to come to nyc

4. cats in heat- the honorary title

5. stupid kid- alk3

6. polar bear club

7. eddie vedder

8. numbers- sky eats airplane

9. american me

10. the way i feel inside- the zombies

11. is there a ghost- band of horses

12. this modern love- bloc party

13. all of weezers blue album again and again

IT'S A HOLIDAY, 4TH OF JULY

i just want to worry about myself

i just want to worry about myself

i just want to worry about myself

i just want to worry about myself

i just want to worry about myself

i just want to worry about myself

i just want to worry about myself

i'm going to have a wrinkly fucking face when i am old. hmph.

There's only one voice

I just thought about how most of this year has sucked except for november, the month which i usually dread.  

Go figure.

Bring on the new year, i'm probably jynxing myself right now by writing this.

my tooth is going to fall out.

last winter was fucking hell. i was sitting duck in a waiting game , waiting to fly south , into the summer heat by myself.  this turned out to completely destroy and rebuild me. one not after the other, but at the same time if that makes sense. i don't know...maybe thats how things are suppose to work so that they can feel important? because they do more than ever, but have always.

fuck i'm growing up.

the Grinch

i hate the hoe li daze unless theyre illegit ones like the 4th of july and st. patricks day ( but only the day that the parade on the island is set for). all other holidays are too much stress and i sincerely hate this month so far.  also, i may be the only person who doesnt update about how they are so nervous and freaking out about their finals ever other second. maybe because i don't care this semester about my classes , or maybe thats just not me, but i'll probably regret just making flashcards and never going over them.

i probably have bronchitis or something like that.  i can't eat for the past 2 days my stomach is just being weird and i have coughing attacks where it feels like a lung is going to come flying out of my throat.

i got paul the perfect christmas present and rob got him it too , fuck

a woman i work with wears a pin around on everything that says " it's ok to say merry christmas to me" and put a sign on her stations mirror that says "jesus is the reason for the season" haha.

cargo has the best appetizers ever, i still hate the studio, where is ghostface

why is there going to be a real world brooklyn? as if two new yorks werent bad enough

i got the perfect tattoo idea , finally

i'm super annoyed

my t.v. only plays channel 4 now because i gave my other one to my grandma because hers broke so i can't watch david letterman at night anymore, fuck squared

nikkianne is coming home to me in 5 days, thank god.

NEEK NEEK

new york,

i love you, but you're bringing me down

Nerdy.

I can't wait to roadtrip.

this song will always top them all.

Why do your eyes paralyze me
What makes me feel this way
Just carry me away with silence and heartbeats
As rapid thinking about your embrace
and how it makes me feel
I just want to feel this way forever
Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you
Why have I been given the chance to fly
When I'm not with you I feel lesser alone
I remember your face / imprinted on angels
Your voice as beautiful / as the sounds of waves
crashing against my heart
Time slows down when you look at me
I'm infatuated with this / infatuated with you
It's so hard for me to understand why
I hadn't found you before don't dull away
hold my hand