new york , i love you, but you're bringing me down.
like a death of the heart, jesus, where do i start?
but youre still the one pool, where i'd happily drown.

"They're on pot."

i'm super stoned and should be asleep but i had to write before i get all this crazy babble running through my brain.

so..


i'm turning 20 in about 20 years and i don't like the idea of a 2 as the first digit of my number catagory. no one ever describes their twenties as the best time of their life, it's always their teens. TWENTIES DON'T TAKE ME : [

listening to rick ross

if anyone wants to join this crazy anti-gravity yoga class with me at CRUNCH gyms in the city lemme know

xbox>me

my birfday and nikkiannes ( and chris's) departure are on the same day which totally calls for a 3-way combination party. my birthday is the 28th i wanna celebrate for AT LEAST 3 days.

schoool schoooool schooooooooool.

workk worrrrrk wooorrrkkkk.

i'm gonna apply to hunter for media studies and production along with FIT. i need to get transcripts wednesday .

possies

+ sweater stockings

+ the weather is gonna get slightly colder this week, so i hear

+ the hills because i'm a straight up faggot for it

+ pauls ( or whoevers) cake with nutella frosting. KUDOS

+ gas prices lowering

+ helen thomas and sarah palin

neggies

-books being 431$

- my classes, all of them

- stress to the max

-all this transfer shit i have to do

- cariannes birthday getting rained out

- it STILL BEING mad hot

- my macbook being dead

- my macbook being dead

- my macbook is dead =[

Hello Darkness,

my old friend.

Tooth Extraction

or bloody warfare massacre in my mouth?

either way its going to suck when the novocain wears off and everyone laughed when i said i have to go to school at 8 am tomorrow and work afterwards, but it was no joke.

"

2) Admissions Requirements

You will receive two confirmations that your application has been received: the first will be from the SUNY Application Services Center and the second will be from FIT.

The letter that you receive from FIT will include your assigned login IDs, PIN and Password which you will need to complete your application. It can take 3 – 4 weeks for this second letter to arrive   "

Who can really wait around for 3-4 weeks for a letter to come? i'm too anxious for that type of thing. it's been eating away at my life. I just want to write this essay and get it over with and know my fate and all the what-nots.

I constantly read New York Magazine. yes, OMG, a revelation, there is a magazine to read besides the ever so popular nylon magazine, not that i don't read that either. anyways, there was an article in this issue about people who came to new york because they believed it was really going to be the place where " dreams come true" and that every second, minute, and hour something exciting would be going on. Then the article went into how these people decided to move to BUFFALO because all they really gained here was high rent prices.  The article was crazy, i had no idea buffalo was the second poorest city in the U.S. and that $60,000 could get you a median / average sized house and that $300,000 could get  you a mansion.  $60,000 here will get you a hut under the boardwalk that a bum has been peeing on the side of for weeks.

I'm glad i'm an actual " New Yorker" and  i know the real deal...but really.... did these people really think that a city where everyone wants to be and / or is moving because its " the city of dreams" wouldn't be tough fucking shit? seriously.  But at least you have an office with french doors in buffalo

The article was good but it made me angry, just as the writer said it probably was.

p.s. i'm way too into the hillz

tomorrow is school and mouth surgrey ...where i'll probably have a panic attack and leave before i walk into the office